The I will always love you's came and so did the pain.
& my dad left, and my mom never cried,
I'm still deciding when to stop.
Maybe it was because I was stuck.
Because the oldest, well he was four states away, & he saw it coming.
The next brother had his own internal battle, that he is still fighting.
& the next boy screamed the f word and walked out the door,
he came back, but he was never the same.
& me stuck.
Things got better, the pain dulled.
My mom met someone a couple years later.
I personally thought his biceps were a little too big & his heart, a little too small.
But the backyard wedding still happened, and then eventually she left too.
& here I am 8 months from 18 and still stuck.
A custody battle over a 17 year old girl, who just wants to be left alone.
But its all about the money, I mean me.
Maybe I'm just bitter, or maybe I'm just waiting to be unstuck.
Freak this post is so real
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ah i love this
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ReplyDeleteI felt this. And not in the way I can relate, I'm sorry to say I can't. But maybe you'll think me naïve because who would want to be able to relate, but I'm still sorry to say. And i still felt this.
ReplyDeletei felt this too. Not the kind of feeling where i know, but the kind of feeling where you pointed out a problem to me, and it hurt because i wish it wasn't real.
Delete"I personally thought his biceps were a little too big & his heart, a little too small."
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amazing in all ways. proud. you're so strong.
ReplyDeleteyoure amazing. this was amazing.
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